My back hurts so fucking bad. I cannot believe I have reached the point in my life where I am complaining about my back but I am. I have a bulging/herniated(idk which) disc at the base of my spine and combine that with a 60 mile EACH WAY commute I find myself crying on my desk. But hey. On it, not under it. As my friend Al said - living the ( Read more... )

So back in September there was a giant clusterfuck with my insurance not recognizing my disability and not being able to afford my meds. I went through withdrawal and everything. My mom and I spent a solid week on the phone working to get put back on. Now, two months later, a letter came in the mail stating due to my disability - I'm officially ( Read more... )

So my service dog moved in yesterday. Absolutely no one in my family was happy for me even though Director Nick Fury aka Nick is adorable smart a cuddle slut trainable and a real responsibility. So far the reaction has been that "You cant take care of yourself. How can you take care of a dog?" Um, why is it that no one asks that of me with 100s of ( Read more... )

So I got quiet as shit after my announcement about NYC. That is because my BPDII decided to act up. Not much to report there that you cant find out about on google - blech. Meanwhile I did art projects, overhauled my room, tried not to manically spend money, and worked on my NYC lesson plan which is going to be on the figurative vs literal language ( Read more... )

So, I saw Marlee yesterday which always a big fat reality check. God I love that woman I really do. She says shit that is REALLY hard for me to hear, about how I tend to cast myself in victim role and blow things out of proportion while at the same time validating my pain and bad situation trying to get to the bottom of things and figure out how to ( Read more... )

TIME TO GO BACK TO MY PSYCHIATRIST. THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE COCKTAIL ( Read more... )

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Today I did two things that are a big deal ( Read more... )

I think I may be graduating from Bipolar DIsorder II to Bipolar Disorder I. BPDII is characterised by hypomanic periods lasting less than a week. BPDI is characterized by manic periods lasting a minimum of one week ( Read more... )

So, um, this post is self-indulgent and self-pitying. Feel free to scroll the fuck on ( Read more... )